carrotsticks!

2006-04-16T02:50:00.000-07:00

2004-05-26T01:15:00.000-07:00

Hey ... i noe i hven't blog for a long time....
but then... idun see who will be interested in things
happenin to me.. since... so i should not be obligated
to update and tell everyone wad's happening... i'll
tell the appropriate ppl.. well charm... i will tell u
stuff everytime we see each other... so dun need to come
to my blog... but then again i will be blogging an entry
soon.... on sat.... u guys can come see then...=D

thnx charm for visiting my blog to look for updates...

carol

2004-05-11T04:13:00.000-07:00

lalala... i'm happy......... did well for my bio test... topped the class!!! okok...jus happy then today PESA... got 2nd...well i'm still quite happy!!! finish my 2.4 run!!!! yay yay so many
things done... but still owe quite some homework.... my blog is officially dead... sigh sigh... nvm i shall not forsake my blog..
and i've come to a conclusion on nat... she's jus lame and sick!... sick sick.but well.. she's still a nice person. Well...i alwaes discover new things every day... sigh i hafta goo... do my debate research and reading articles... haha... tata

Lalala
Carol

2004-05-07T00:15:00.000-07:00

okie dokie.... i wanna try to write a riddle!!!

how many times haf we been upset and down
and jus how many grievances haf we made
probably a thousand for no reason
perhaps we shouldn't be so grumpy
yesterday might haf been gloomy yet today it's different for me
what i feel today is plain for all to see!!
(guess my riddle!!!!)

today is a little sad... ms tan is leaving ....; boohoo... well now she is being
"interrogated" by my classmates on her personal life- BGR....
well she's tryin to escape but i doubt she will ever

OH YA!!!!! today i'm gonna haf my first debate training after JGS!!!!! woohoo!
a new vision and goal for next yr..... yipee! so excited now.... but things r still
not that good.... friends.... drifting away.... sigh... luckily I haf the LORd...

So glad i still haf one good friend who will neva forsake me... JEsus... everyone
sad and down.. rmb... u still haf jesus......

GOD is good all the tiem
and all the time GOD is good!!!!!!
=D

happy!!!
me!me!=P

2004-04-24T01:52:00.000-07:00

Had oral jus... was ok... teachers were nice nth much to say... but our break
was fun.... played indian poker... perhaps the debaters should learn it too
instead of the foreva MRT game... haha.. well my penalty, 1.5 bottle of water
haha.... well.. nth... much... some one jus commented dat I sounded depress
Will i ever NOW ? NEVER!!! to those still depressed... there's nth in life worth
ur depression.. cheer up for the beautiful world.. think of the rainbow... the
pretty flowers, the bright sun... the deep blue sea... and nice pple around u...
LIVE LIFE HAPPILY!=D

happy soul
carol

2004-04-21T02:41:00.000-07:00

YAY! today is wednesday... well i'm back and all clean and refreshed...
warm humid weather these days... sighhh... i stink everyday...!! jus
came back after sending zhuand wen to lavender to make zhu's ic...
can't wait to haf mine!=D okok... i'm rahter free now so i dunno wad
to say... ohyes... today we had PCCG and its was rather farnie ...
WLK was tokin about relationship... and asked who had BF... then of
course i said sharon and mich .. muahahaha and WLK belieff well then
we went into detail by sayin that they had each other... WLK still did not
get wad we were tryin to say - they are THE couple... so then stupid
huiwen was insisting I had a BF! hummph.... and say its from TCHS.. grr
okok... its not the skool... but then i honestly dun ... well anyway the
funniest one dat we made up was chian and her gorilla BF... chian say she
must get married in her life... so WLK gave her a scenario...if u were 26
already and there's a guy who likes u but u dun like him... and he's nice..
would u for the sake of getting married choose him...and b4 chian answered
we were like shoutin she can go for her GORILLA!! haha... we kept saying
chian has a wider range ot choose her BF from... sommore can be human
or not...haha... we tease each toher like siao... but then i think WLK's friends
are all so poor thing wif love life... sigh....well well super bored dunno wad to
do maybe go think of a poem and post it later!=D

Carol

2004-04-12T05:03:00.000-07:00

hahahahaha.......... i'm happy again.... everything is cleared up... i think i'm over worry-ied aniwae i dun think anyone except for some noe wad on earth i'm tokin about ... its ok..... wrote a sadist poem in skool today... shall blog it tml coz i dun wan to spoil the happy atmosphere... but aniwae no one eva read my blog so no point haha.....
Cheers!:D
carol

2004-04-10T05:52:00.000-07:00

suddenly my world stopped revolving
suddenly, i feel an upsurge of feelings
suddenly i'm overwhelmed by something,
something i cannot describe
something weird that's growing in me

suddenly the flower becomes a bud
suddenly the sun shines with stars around it..
suddenly the moon never appears
suddenly the computer becomes emotional
suddenly the human turns just cold and untelling

I'm in darkness
i'm not lost
but i've been guided to somewhere
a place where i should haf come
yet it is where sorrow dictates all

i long for my face to be washed
not with water but with my own tears
i am not sad but i am helpless
nothing can be done
but will tears change it all?

suddenly i hope its all a dream
suddenly i hope i'm awaking in minutes
suddenly i cannot face up to harsh reality
suddenly i feel no strength from within
suddenly..... i face this unfeeling world alone.........

my heart cries for it can't beat
it has lost everything
it sees no meaning
it fights for beatin to continue
but then..........all is gone.....

help-less.........
tearless cry
carol

2004-04-09T03:20:00.000-07:00

ok... i'm so glad someone's back....

comfort
The air is fresh once again
it has cleared the mist i haf hung above myself
I see the sun once again
I feel comforted for i can see
I feel my own existence
i find meaning in living
from the light shining
I no longer lose myself
like i did with the mist above me

i'd searched deep within me then,
to break free of my entwining sorrows
which dragged me down
into a deep abyss
the hole.... so cold
and yet i thought i could seek refuge
but i'm wrong for i cannot see

So now I thank the lord
for the sun he bestowed upon me
in my little path he paved for me
I haf the sun to guide me
for it warms my heart, deep within.

well i truly priase the lord for giving me my guide in life....!
Lord is good all the time

happy
rejoiced
once lost but found
carol

2004-04-08T07:56:00.000-07:00

ahhh my post was deleted.... i jus wanna say in short... i feel like i dont
exist.... i miss ppl who tokand care about my being.... i miss themmm
..sighh... lost my only solace jus.... juss....sigh.... ok... bye

missing
acting stupid
non-existing.....
"me"......

2004-04-03T02:55:00.000-08:00

hi ppl... today is saturday nth special.... but I'm soo happy I had MC
yesterday I slept till 12 noon...!!!!!! felt so rejuvenated!!! yesterday
was also Jgs quarter finals.... congrats to teams that won.... well to
those who haf lost dun be too sad.... there's alwaes another chance..
I think my quote for this week should be somethingabout WINNING
and LOSING....hmmm... shall hunt for one later.... NY lost to SCGS....
well it's ok... congrats to them still... all the best!!!

welll.... I feel so happy last sunday(i noe its a little far back...) I had my
watch gathering.... (watch as in OBS group) well four feelings...happy... disappointed..angry...satisfied!

firstly Iw as happy coz i missed my watch mates and of course my
instructor, squiddie!!!!!!! So I made lotsa stuff... jelly... cookies...
salad... ham& cheese sandwich...nuggets..fizzy lemonade...etc... so I
hada good time preparing them... then everyone who's suppose to
turned up did so.... I was happy but till the point i called squiddie....

we were in the bus goin to my house then becoz we were late so we
decided to call squiddie to see if she's at my house yet... then when we
call her... she was still outside !!!! I was sad and angry coz.... she had
to leave the whole thing at 6 so if she's gonna come late there's not
much time left for our gathering....so anyway... was pissed.... untill my
friends cheered me up....

So she arrived ..even took a cab down so i was quite happy....then we
talked and talked..... then pple started to leave..... then we took alot of
fotos of my instructor...she was like the star man.... everyone was like
lining up to take foto wif her... that she had a tortured look as if being
forced to smile in the fotos she took..HAHA.... but welll we love our
instructor soooo much.... so we had a great time.... was disppointed coz
she neva eat the food at alll.... but the comforting thing was she took
the cookies and ate on her way back to obs..!!!!!! welll so I felt satisfied
dat the party was quite a success.... hmmm...
OBS rox..I still love my watch ... I love my instructor:)

love-over-abundant
happy-freak
carol!

2004-03-26T08:47:00.000-08:00

hi pple....
today was JGs... well congrats to the 8 teams who got into
the quarters.... esp my skool !!! U guys rock!!! and MGS!
u guys too rock on... amyway... was disappointed and fed up
today... i was really not focused today ... could not fully
concentrate... well dunno.... in any case.... thnx to me not
rebutting the right stuff sufficently...our team lost....
well i trust the LOrd haf other plans for us!!!! for all who
are disappointed ... even feli... think of it as a start of another
plan God is going to give us... morever... next year we still haf
a chance!!!!!!!! Anyway.... i jus think debates rocked...still rox..
and wil continue to Rock ON!!!!!!!

dunno-wad-i'm-feeling
dunno-wad-to-do
dying-of-boredom
Carol

2004-03-25T00:16:00.000-08:00

hi!i'm not suppose to be bloggin but anyway will blog! welll today... its one day before JGs!!!!!!!!! Am freaking out..... some really bad stuff... dunno my speech well!!!!!Anyway... i dunno how we will do tml... all the best to everyone speaking ... :D ohhh... nth much happened today ... had interview with ms CHang... freaky ... as in i was nervous... the sailing thing is cooler by day!!! she say i can go for the fieldtrip!!!!!!!! yay!!!! but i hope i can do it too!!!hmm... i'm toking to myself again... Vic says hi!!!!

freaky gal
lousy debater
excited
carol

2004-03-22T02:58:00.000-08:00

hi! today is monday!!! had lincoln meeting!! can't believe it man....
had 3 meetings during recess... hadta rush like siao... i was rather
sweaty afterdat(yuck!) worse of all had pure humans after dat!!!!
pure HIST!!!! and the teacher... Mrs tieh... i was soooo messy... i
hadta setup the com for her ... etc... and the com refuse to work!
Well.... i think the LOrd reall yos good! i wasn't shortlisted for the
endyr overseas attachment programme....so i was rather disappointed..
so happen mandaa and charm too.... jenn was short listed congraTS!!
aHHH MY leg's bleedin again...I'm foreva itchin after OBS ... hmmm
can't wait to see the doc 4 MC!!!!!! haha... but anyway... those who
weren't shortlisted was provided wif another option that i luv
more than the initial one... jus dat we haf to work wif TCHS?? no offence
to ppl there... hehe.. =P well its a sailing cum attachment programme
u get to sail for 10 days In NZ!!!!!!! yippeee!!! is two in one...
sailing plus visitin some skool!!!!!!! haha... i'm like so happy!!!! PRAISE
the LORD =D ... but mus go thru interview again...sigh... well wish me
luck! =) anyway... wrote the sppech for friday's match!!!!! amandaa was
soo nice... she made it sound as if it was sooo good.... thnx gal!!! for
makin my 'nite'(its purely becoz i did the speech in the nite!)? well
i'm in a better mood now! lalalala... but piano lesson sucked... well
shall not tok about it.... OHH!!!!! i receive a little card From my OBS
instructor aka Giant squiD!!!!! she's soo nice.... well thou mean a little.. abused me even in the card again... sigh... but she so nice... nvrm...haha
ok... gtg eat dinner... haven't eaten the whole day!! had jelly for lunch!
cool huh... okok i'm crappin.... CIAO!!!!!!

happy gal,
still a freak
carol

2004-03-21T01:26:00.000-08:00

its sunday... my homework are3/4 done... dunno how to do
bio wksht... heck la... haven done speeches too!!!!! (debates...jgs)
Ahhh i hate jgs... for being in this week!!!!!!!!! it sux.... i'm half
dead... half worn out from the little sleep i had... heart pumping too
fast... sigh... i need to find solace!!!!!!! well...was suppose to see a doc... hopefully can get MC... and i'm not running away... i jus want a break...
Come what may.... i will haf to trust in the lord as what my priest
said in the sermon today.... everyone pray hard... for the new week..
for the jgs.. and rmb me in ur prayer... may the lord guide me thru
all difficulties... ok..
here's a quote

"Every tomorrow has two handles.
We can take hold of it with the handle of anxiety
or the handle of faith."
Henry Ward Beecher

well that's my quote of the week
ciao! smile ppl.... a new week's comin ur way!

slacker
freak
carol

2004-03-20T08:24:00.000-08:00

WHAT AM I TO DO....

lost in the deep abyss
i can't see
i seek for refuge
but the only light flickers ...
and extingush

i hope for a turn back
back , where eveything used to be
a life of love
and most importantly
friendship

guilt transformed everything
opened my eyes and made me see
the true you and me
some thing i never realise
until i was lost in this abyss

stressed-out-freak aka trouble maker
aka sad me...

2004-03-20T08:17:00.000-08:00

time check 12.15... my 3rd sleepless nite....wonder wad
time i'll sleep again...anyway... i just cannot understand somethings..
alot of question marks in my head.....well i hope we do our best for jgs!!!
no matter win or lose... we did our best together as a team...

2004-03-20T05:42:00.000-08:00

well... slackin now... a new blog my third one i guess...
am suppose to write speeches :P too lazy too haven
finish any homework!!!!!!!! well tryin to get started
on my cl functional writing(which suck) okok first entry
nth much to say jus very stressed here..... sigh...
oh yes... link me!!!!!!!!!!

ny deb8ter
lousy speaker
caroline